I reconnected with a girl from my past. We hung out a couple of times back when I was living with my sister (2014ish, I think?), we really hit it off, had a lot in common, never grew tired of talking to each other…but I wasn’t in a good place and she knew it. I […]Read More New Beginnings, Yo!
I took your advice, friends. I’ve started to just focus on me, which has led me to stop caring about finding someone. It’s weird to go from not caring about anything, to caring too much and being too sensitive about everything, to not caring about what people think or about finding someone. I’ve decided that […]Read More In Which I Stop Caring
Fuck dating. It’s an awful, but necessary part of society that I’m just no good at. Buddha only knows how it is that I’ve had successful dates and not-so-successful LTRs in the past. I’m so awful at it that I’ve even managed to be awful at online dating. ONLINE DATING, for fuck’s sake. Friends and […]Read More In Which My Loneliness Is Killing Me
The world is an ugly, shitty, terrible, cruel place and I am a product of it. I just had to take myself off of Facebook for a while, it’s just become a wholly upsetting place lately. I get it, white supremacists and Nazis are out there making an already awful world all the more awful. […]Read More In Which I Alienate Everyone I Know
#7: I Don’t Care by Fall Out Boy Ever since I graduated from high school in ’05, I’ve stopped giving a fuck about what people think of me. I’ve always been the type who thinks any publicity is good publicity, since the whole idea is to get people talking about you. In high school, it […]Read More TTSTDM #7
#8: Hate Everyone by Say Anything Misanthropy has always been a part of who I am. Maybe it was being bullied a lot as a kid/teen, maybe it’s been the ~15 years of working customer service/retail, maybe I’m just an asshole with no faith in humanity who judges every book by its’ cover. Whatever it […]Read More TTSTDM: #8
Honestly, I’m not even sure what to write anymore. I’ve lost all motivation to create, whether it be writing or making music. It’s very disheartening to me because I feel as though I need and could benefit greatly from a creative outlet, but all the ideas I have just remain ideas. I have five pieces […]Read More In Which Our Hero Feels…Weird
#9: Pain by Jimmy Eat World It’s funny. I heard this song when it came out and I thought “huh, this is pretty good”. Bleed American was such a great album, though I didn’t appreciate it until well into my mid-twenties, but when Futures came out I didn’t really give a shit. I’ve still only heard “Pain” off […]Read More TTSTDM: #9
Song #10: I Know You Are But What Am I? by Mogwai This is probably in the top ten saddest songs I’ve ever heard. Starting off with a very minimal piano track, around the 90-second mark you begin to hear the electronic drum track start to build in volume before disappearing, only to return with […]Read More The Ten Songs That Define Me: #10
Well, it’s been almost a week since I started my new liquor store job. It’s different than Andy’s, I’m doing both register and floor duties. Hauling up pallets of beer, booze, and wine isn’t as bad as I thought it’d be, but it’s been hell on my back. Thank fuck we have […]Read More New Job, Same Attitude.