Honestly, I’m not even sure what to write anymore. I’ve lost all motivation to create, whether it be writing or making music. It’s very disheartening to me because I feel as though I need and could benefit greatly from a creative outlet, but all the ideas I have just remain ideas. I have five pieces of music creation software on my laptop and I don’t know how to use a single one, let alone what to make once I do. I feel like I’ve become what I’ve always hated: a man who’s all theory and no action. A bunch of empty words which remain just that: empty words. Maybe it’s the drugs, maybe it’s the depression, maybe it’s the fact I never seen much of anything through…shit, maybe it’s because I haven’t smoked reefer in 1+ month. Something has to give, and soon, or I feel like these ideas will make my fucking head explode.